Choices
Summer is quickly approaching. Flowers are out in full bloom. Baby bunnies are hopping in our backyard. Every day I see beautiful birds all around. Pools are opening. Parties are planned and cookouts are scheduled, vacations are booked. Summer is my favorite time of the year. I love hot long lazy days hanging out by the pool. I love having friends stop in to swim and have a cookout in the backyard.
Yet somehow a part of me longs for the years long past. The ones when my kids were little and played baseball and hung out with their friends riding bikes and playing games. After dark catching lightning bugs in jars.
Life seemed simpler then. Or is it just the nostalgia of thinking that life was simpler
Somehow looking back through the lens of time it is easy to forget the frustrations of having kids at home and juggling schedules and who calls off when one kid is sick? The running to practices and all the endless chores of parenthood. It is having a baby and swearing you will never ever do that again and yet you forget the pain of childbirth and CHOOSE to do it again. Some of us multiple times.
Losing Michael was the single most devastating thing I have had to endure in this lifetime. I have had multiple losses and none of them compare to his death and learning to live with the pain and the grief.
However, given the choice of never having experienced his life to avoid the pain caused by his death. I would choose every time to experience his life. I had the awesome privilege of being his mother for 23 years and 362 days (2016 was a leap year) on this earth. And I am still blessed to be his mother even if he lives in a different realm.
If you have lost a child you may resonate with this. You may be at the point where you want to figure out how to live again, but you aren’t sure where to start or how to even begin to heal after the pain of child loss.
I can help. I never thought it would be possible to live again. I never thought I could heal from the pain of child loss. I wanted to die too. But I am still here and I am thriving and I am living. You can too! It is possible!
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XOXO
Coach Laura